my very personal feelings

i started a relationship with the worst possible match i could find for myself ..

now i know one thing i can only be with nothing short of my ideal love.. a real one .

i cant hurt myself or another person like i did hurt so many people over the past couple of month i feel ashamed to think how easily i used the word love over the past few month.

mid end of january

here i am bored and sitting alone i ditched all my many friends for a little quiet among strangers haha the truth is i sill know many of this crowd but still none of them are the type i d like to talk to or even make me wonder that i might might speak to ...

i am listening to lilly allen the littlest thing such beautiful song haha i wish i could become the face of channel too like her the only thing ever done by that guy karl legerfeld i admire choosing her as the face of channel ..

it seems that i cant shake those memories i wonder if you feel the same way too....

lets listen to the song again,.

it is nice to get lost among so many people i want to go to japan to tokyo and lose myself among 100000000 people on the streets of tokyo i want to lose myself lose the sense of time and place .. i want it ..